Pondering my year, as I do, I'm not surprised to alight on the fact it’s been a seriously challenging 354 days and a period of time I will be glad to see the back of. Lets just say it’s pretty much been the year from hell. Even the year I separated was not as bad as this year. Stress, upon stress, upon stress. Work stress, health stress, financial stress, family stress. I’m drained. Physically, emotionally, mentally. Lets just say I can’t wait to see the end of 2015 and the start of a new year. However, I have been reflecting on the year that’s been and for all it’s terrible parts, there have been some amazing bits scattered here and there. Some of the best things that have ever happened to me, surprisingly enough.
Firstly, there was the entry into the Uninterrupted website competition, which was amazingly successful. I was gobsmacked and lost for words when I found out. So exciting! I have however, probably not taken as much time and care as I would have liked with this due to fatigue and life commitments. It came at a time when I was so swamped and overwhelmed with sickness. From the end of May to mid September, I was sick on sick, on sick with every conceivable respiratory virus known to human kind. Lets just say it was an extremely trying and exhausting time, with all my MS symptoms present and making sure their presence was felt, every second of every day. There were I’m afraid to say lots of tears, lots of tantrums and a serious amount of non coping, especially where work was concerned. However, I did try my best to write blogs, and put them up, whilst being a single mum, running a household and working shifts. This certainly didn’t happen as often as I liked, or were my blogs particularly thought about and planned. Being sick and writing is not something I do well. I’d just like to think someone read something I wrote and it resonated with them?
One of the most wonderful things to happen this year was my birthday. It was a day just like any other day. I was at work, nothing new or surprising about that. What I didn’t know was, it was going to be one of my best days, one of the most surprising and unexpected of days for me. The best kind of day. My wonderful work mates gave me a surprise afternoon tea, complete with birthday cake and candles and song. Beautiful cupcakes, sandwiches, food galore and gifts that simply blew me away. Gifts I still can’t believe to this very day. I truly witnessed generosity and love on a grand scale. I have never really felt so appreciated in my whole life. I know most nurses have amazing hearts but this, I just classified as an act of love, pure and simple. I often look back upon that day, and its memory sustains me and helps me get through whatever I’m facing. I want you all to know how something like that can change a persons’ whole outlook on things. It was seriously one of the most important days in my life thus far. It taught me that caring and kindness, is so much more important than I ever thought and I am blessed to have such wonderful, giving and caring people in my life. Thank-you so much, you all know who you are. That day will never leave my memory, its entrenched in my heart and etched upon my mind.
Whilst our days and months are often hard to struggle through, it’s a good reminder that it’s the little things that are really the big things. One simple act of kindness, a random act of giving, of love, without expecting anything in return can change a whole persons’ perspective. It can make them remember they are not simply struggling alone, there are people out there who care and do care. Being a week before Christmas, it is probably a timely reminder for us to all open our hearts and minds. Give of ourselves. It doesn’t have to be be anything special, just something given from the heart, a helping hand can make all the difference in a persons’ life. I for one am trying to do this. Not only does it make the person receiving feel better, it makes you, the giver feel better as a person. Little things make a difference, a friendly smile, a helping hand, a simple conversation, a cup of coffee. It doesn’t have to be a big thing to change somebody’s world, even if it is just for a day. I like to think kindness is contagious. If you do something nice for someone today, they will be more likely to do something kind for someone tomorrow and so on.
So Merry Christmas everyone and many blessings for the New Year. I for one, am quietly hoping 2016 is a great year for me and Miss O.