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Unlike most diagnoses of Multiple Sclerosis 24 hours was all it took to receive my diagnosis and, what's more, it was me that asked to be tested specifically for MS

It was November 1997 when I went off to see a neurologist. I had been booked in to see the specialist following a car...

Girl Alone
I am the elephant in the room.
Not because you don't love me. Because you love me so much, you don't want it to be real. And maybe if we ignore it, if we don't mention it, if we sweep it under the rug, it doesn't exist.
Maybe if we act normal,...
Sleepy Koala
I've been thinking for days on how to answer this question. What IS my worst symptom? And I tried to remember all of my symptoms and tried to categorise them from least-awful to plain-awful, and found myself really struggling. What's the worst one? 
Is it having cuts on...

My son was four months old when my first obvious MS symptoms presented themselves to me for the first time. By the time I reached my diagnosis he was eighteen months old. The decision to have more children was not an easy decision though it was a decision that came quickly. Not wanting to play...

Sky writing


I stumbled across this link on social media last week, accompanied by the short headline (above) that seemed at first glance to say “see – I told you so! Being positive doesn’t impact...

Kindness card

I love Christmas.  For me it is a wonderful season of remembering a first century teenage girl who was unmarried and pregnant, and the young man who stuck by her as she gave birth in a stranger’s stable. We try to reduce the stress that can be associated with Christmas in my family by keeping...


Two years ago I could not have foreseen what MS would bring to my life. And no, I am not deluding myself with mindless positivity. I despise MS, although I have grown used to it. My surprise stems from the fact that I am a much happier person now than I was before my diagnosis....


The months leading up to the diagnosis of MS are difficult for most of us.  But when a physician’s body fails them, there's an additional, subtle layer of angst to deal with.  Doctors don't get sick.  And when we do, it is uncomfortable for everyone involved.  To witness another doctor proving...


I hope you’re all well and living in the ‘now’ while exercising, meditating, brain-training, and eating in moderation, after my last post! Thanks so much for those who took the time to read, share, and comment on the last blog. This is my longest blog yet (and...

Door with door knocker

My grandmother had a saying “knock on any door and you’ll hear a story”. She knew how to put the kettle on quickly and she always had a tin of some nice, home-baked treat to enjoy with the tea and conversation.

Battling public transport is not a bad time to practice “door...

Winter Sunset

I had been planning a post about peoples reactions to my diagnosis, though it would seem that this decided it wanted to come out more.

The person standing there looking at me, physically looked like the same person I knew, though there was something behind her eyes. Self-...


Thanks to everyone who's taken the time to read my first blog, and especially to those who took the time to comment. I love that I'm not alone in the MS closet, it's nice and cosy!
The topic for my second blog post was a simple choice for me. I feel I need to address the 'elephant in the...

Photo of the insides of a wardrobe

As a 30-year old male, I only ever thought I’d have to ‘come out’ the one time. After my teen years were dominated by feelings of fear and worry at the reactions and judgments I may receive by being honest with my sexuality, I came out in my early twenties, with much more acceptance than I had...


Pondering my MS as I do.  I am surprised to find people see traits in me, that I don't.  Amazing, courageous and strong. "Who", "what?" " Are you talking about me?".

I'm not these things. The most amazing, courageous and strong people for me, are the many I have known and encountered on...